No, Thanks!

The position being taken is not to be mistaken
For attempted education or righteous accusation
Only a description just an observation of the pitiful
Condition of our degeneration
Karl lost his central and lateral incisors to a night of riotous inebriation. Witnesses, friends of his, remember the tractor coming at them, all bound together- caddy cornered in the bar. The adrenaline in their blood rose beyond any childhood mistakes. Karl’s escape was Sally’s and it was Lila’s. He’d have to leap over their backs to clear the impending collision with the dirt charred Caterpillar machinery. Outside of his physical body, Karl was already across the street lighting up a cigarette, hunched over the fallen telephone pole, puking his guts out, but his thoughts were too light to carry him out of harms way, so there he stood- face to face with the metallic claw that swung down just below his nose.  
The clunk to his upper jaw started to skip like his father’s car CD player. His shut eyelids twitched as he tried to scream but realized he felt no actual pain. His body was in complete darkness, a wind tunnel that sent him soaring through oblivion. The feeling of freefalling overtook his nerves. 
The first thing he saw was the fifty five hundred feet of rock cliffs. He couldnt move his arms or legs. In the entirety of an instant he looked around collecting his memory. His spaceship. His crew. A lousy breakfast. The eject button. He moved his fingers. 
His eyes shut tightly and Karl clenched his teeth as the pain in his back soared beyond comprehension. Rolling to his side, off a particularly sharp stone he found relief. He was ok, he thought as he licked all his remaining teeth, an old habit since the actual tractor accident 17 yrs ago.

Karl lost his central and lateral incisors to a night of riotous inebriation. Witnesses, friends of his, remember the tractor coming at them, all bound together- caddy cornered in the bar. The adrenaline in their blood rose beyond any childhood mistakes. Karl’s escape was Sally’s and it was Lila’s. He’d have to leap over their backs to clear the impending collision with the dirt charred Caterpillar machinery. Outside of his physical body, Karl was already across the street lighting up a cigarette, hunched over the fallen telephone pole, puking his guts out, but his thoughts were too light to carry him out of harms way, so there he stood- face to face with the metallic claw that swung down just below his nose.  

The clunk to his upper jaw started to skip like his father’s car CD player. His shut eyelids twitched as he tried to scream but realized he felt no actual pain. His body was in complete darkness, a wind tunnel that sent him soaring through oblivion. The feeling of freefalling overtook his nerves. 

The first thing he saw was the fifty five hundred feet of rock cliffs. He couldnt move his arms or legs. In the entirety of an instant he looked around collecting his memory. His spaceship. His crew. A lousy breakfast. The eject button. He moved his fingers. 

His eyes shut tightly and Karl clenched his teeth as the pain in his back soared beyond comprehension. Rolling to his side, off a particularly sharp stone he found relief. He was ok, he thought as he licked all his remaining teeth, an old habit since the actual tractor accident 17 yrs ago.

slaughterhouse90210:

“That’s the struggle of humanity, to recruit others to your version of what’s real.’ ― Saul Bellow, The Adventures of Augie March

slaughterhouse90210:

“That’s the struggle of humanity, to recruit others to your version of what’s real.’
Saul Bellow, The Adventures of Augie March

Portland, Maine. April, 2013.

Portland, Maine. April 2013.

Portland, Maine. April 2013.

re-editing so that everyone sleeps only by placing newspaper over their heads. 

* Oil painting of me sipping steaming cup of tea looking out backdoor peephole into rainy backlot waiting for shipment that never comes.*

notes I’ve left. 

Books in Portland, Maine.

Books in Portland, Maine.


“How a major studio allowed such a vehemently odd movie to exist really is a mystery. Its outlandishness isn’t forced; it’s forceful. This is a film that expands a singular style of humor into an entire worldview, a physics as vast as the Force in Star Wars.”
— Sam McPheeters, Repo Man: A Lattice of Coincidence

“How a major studio allowed such a vehemently odd movie to exist really is a mystery. Its outlandishness isn’t forced; it’s forceful. This is a film that expands a singular style of humor into an entire worldview, a physics as vast as the Force in Star Wars.”

Sam McPheeters, Repo Man: A Lattice of Coincidence

(Source: criterioncollection, via bbook)

always been a pretty solid breaking up/fuck you track. 

Fuck-bruised and coked up since 4pm the day before, Juanitanya stares down her reflection in the Rittenhouse fountain until the vile exploded out of her throat.
It was now 11am friday and the dogs were out and about with their jeweled collars tethered to their wealthy owners, older women who would train their animals to sniff around good looking students on their lunch break. 
Juanitanya didn’t have anywhere to go, at least anywhere she remembered and neither did I, so when I noticed her I crouched down and asked if she was alright.
She shrugged. I rolled her a cigarette then lit it as it stuck dangling from her dry bottom lip. I pet a passing orange Chow Chow. 
Sweat pouring from her forehead, Juanitanya dry heaved for about a minute. She wanted to know if i’d help her into the bookstore across the park so she could sit in the bathroom stall for a while, but when we got there the security guard seemed to arch his stance, flashing a stern look. I thought we’d be turned away.
Instead, he smiled. He opened the door wishing us a good morning as Juanitanya limped past him with an arm and all her weight on my right shoulder. She stopped me at the escalator, thanked me for my help telling me she’d be fine from here. Fine with me. 
I couldn’t say I felt good about myself, or bad, or anything in particular. It was just something that happened.
A group of girls i knew from riding the University’s elevator so often were on their way to an italian ice shop. It was the first day of spring and the shop was giving away free scoops as a promotion. I wasn’t hungry but could never refuse the company of girls.
I looked into the book store behind me for a moment, couldn’t make anyone out to be Juanitanya, turned back to the girls who were asking me how my thesis was going. Always a thrilling conversation. 

Fuck-bruised and coked up since 4pm the day before, Juanitanya stares down her reflection in the Rittenhouse fountain until the vile exploded out of her throat.

It was now 11am friday and the dogs were out and about with their jeweled collars tethered to their wealthy owners, older women who would train their animals to sniff around good looking students on their lunch break. 

Juanitanya didn’t have anywhere to go, at least anywhere she remembered and neither did I, so when I noticed her I crouched down and asked if she was alright.

She shrugged. I rolled her a cigarette then lit it as it stuck dangling from her dry bottom lip. I pet a passing orange Chow Chow. 

Sweat pouring from her forehead, Juanitanya dry heaved for about a minute. She wanted to know if i’d help her into the bookstore across the park so she could sit in the bathroom stall for a while, but when we got there the security guard seemed to arch his stance, flashing a stern look. I thought we’d be turned away.

Instead, he smiled. He opened the door wishing us a good morning as Juanitanya limped past him with an arm and all her weight on my right shoulder. She stopped me at the escalator, thanked me for my help telling me she’d be fine from here. Fine with me. 

I couldn’t say I felt good about myself, or bad, or anything in particular. It was just something that happened.

A group of girls i knew from riding the University’s elevator so often were on their way to an italian ice shop. It was the first day of spring and the shop was giving away free scoops as a promotion. I wasn’t hungry but could never refuse the company of girls.

I looked into the book store behind me for a moment, couldn’t make anyone out to be Juanitanya, turned back to the girls who were asking me how my thesis was going. Always a thrilling conversation. 

“fall new york.” will be my first feature length screenplay since my college thesis, which was a structural mess. This’ll be a little different. 
“Fall” will be made up of a dozen or so semi-autobiographical vignettes about people I’ve known or sorta’ve known or just seen around since elementary school through the present.
It’s been like a book I keep forgetting to finish, and it’s very likely I won’t.
I’ve hundres of scribblings on the back of receipts I keep meaning to transcribe and just building up the nerve to schedule a root canal for some extra time on my hands. 

fall new york.” will be my first feature length screenplay since my college thesis, which was a structural mess. This’ll be a little different. 

“Fall” will be made up of a dozen or so semi-autobiographical vignettes about people I’ve known or sorta’ve known or just seen around since elementary school through the present.

It’s been like a book I keep forgetting to finish, and it’s very likely I won’t.

I’ve hundres of scribblings on the back of receipts I keep meaning to transcribe and just building up the nerve to schedule a root canal for some extra time on my hands.